Life happens.

My Grand Plan for 2009 has been irrevocably changed. Not denied or derailed – I’ll not admit defeat. Change, like hope, is a double edged sword.

Back on February 26th (the very afternoon after the most recent post here) my boss told me that my position was being eliminated. No fault of my own. Very sorry. Tough times. A decent severance. Priority interview for positions in the system. All that. Before the “exit interview” was even half over, I was thinking about all the doors this would open up. I started thinking about returning to my first employer, the Toledo Public Library. I thought about the Monroe County Library System. I thought about finishing my degree as Network Specialist. I NEVER thought of it as a problem. The only issue I had was not being able to wrap up things in progress. And I had a LOT in progress… I felt my clients were getting shafted. I really don’t know how they can operate the entire system with 1 librarian. I let my family down, but I can only believe it’s for a reason. For a better reason.

Here it is almost 3 weeks later. I’ve put in a number of applications, at places I did not think of at that exit interview. ITT Technical Institute, Sienna Heights University in Adrian. University of Michigan! I will soon be getting a part time job, so that I can collect a double income. I have not accomplished as much around the house as I had hoped to. Now that the weather has broken, I’ll be able to work outside, too.

So, it’s been a jumble of emotions over the last 3 weeks. Stealthy anxiety is still crawling around in my duodenum, like that flu bug last weekend. I’m still looking for job opps, still working on cover letters and follow ups. Still doing laundry and entering recipes. I’m still in love, still loved. And, ultimately, still writing about it all.